Just when you thought it was safe to go back on the internet…………
Life at times is a challenge and as I tell anyone that listens, you have to find your own way of making it through. When I could no longer find solace in the bottom of a wine glass (or box) writing about things in a blog really helped me to make sense of everything and gave me a way to pour those feelings out. Anyone interested in my previous ramblings can access them on https://ronregrufflesandrioja.wordpress.com.
I realized my last post on that site had been posted a long time aog and it didn’t seem fitting to talk about some of the more recent stuff on there. Alot has changed. It had been a long time coming and I guess I couldn’t write about it for a long time. I’ve processed it now and this blog is created in the hope that I can give some love, light and laughter to those around me and those going through a similar experience to me.
I’m not going to get it right all the time. Hey, i’ll be happy if I get it right some of the time. My experience is just that, my experience. My thoughts are my own and how I handle things is the way I deal with them…….not always the best way but at least I’m not trying to compete with Georgie Best anymore!
so this is what it is – just an introduction. A hello if you will. The first tentative steps into telling my story……everyone has a story – maybe you should tell yours.
Like me it’s not straightforward. It’s quirky and complex and all a bit jumbled up. It’s my outlet for dealing with all of it. I’ll talk about alcoholism, sometimes I’ll mention the cancer and it’s gonna have a hefty side order of what’s it like getting used to life the wrong side of 50. i’ll make no excuse for sentiment as to me the world has become a beautiful place because I’ve finally found peace in being who I am and I’ve discovered that there is alot to be grateful for.
I’ve come across some wonderful souls and this blog hopes to help those who are in not as positive a place at the moment for one reason or another. I couldn’t think what to call it and didn’t want to do the whole ‘myleoma and me’ type thing so I unashamedly stole the idea of Hold On Pain Ends (HOPE) from a lovely lady who hugged me when I cried because my hair had gone. I was trying to be so tough but it did matter and I did hate losing my hair even though I told everyone I was fine. A moment of kindness that will be forever remembered because it’s the little things we do in life that matter…..like helping someone else make it through the day.
signing off for now…….
JB x
Hold On Pain Ends 